Embracing Awesome

Snowangel's 12WBT Journey and Beyond

Back to boot camp!

Today I made it back to boot camp after work. Boot camp is not always on…it usually happens in 5 week blocks with a Monday PM session and a Wednesday AM session. I can usually only make it on Mondays but its well worth going so I get to train a bit differently.  I also find the group environment really spurs me on to push myself harder.  Today’s session was great and I only really struggled with the mountain climbers – they make me feel like I’m going to throw up.  So do burpees but luckily we were spared from them today!  It was great to really work hard again and I am looking forward to the next one.

I’m gradually getting my eating back on track.  I really had gone quite off the rails but the past few days I have been using My Fitness Pal to track my calories and while my intake may not have been ideal, it has been more under control.

I have been having some training issues this past week.  It seems that all that extra running the week before (thanks to the Bridge to 10k program) had caused a problem with my hip.  I think it’s a form of bursitis according to my self-diagnosing on the internet (something I know I shouldn’t do) but it does seem to clear up a bit given some rest time.  Problem is that I don’t give it much rest so it keeps coming back.  Maybe a trip to the physio is in order!


The countdown is on…time to get real!

The past few days have seen me quite busy and struggling to find time to blog or address my pre-season tasks for 12WBT.  And the countdown is on until the new round starts so I better start getting serious.  You see I have been just floating along since the end of last round, quite content that I have stayed within a kilo of my round 3 finish weight of 67.6kg. But yesterday I did my first gym workout in a while and I noticed in the mirrors that I’ve gotten a bit soft.  I may have gained no more than a kilo but there were bits sticking out that hadn’t before and I knew straight away the cause.  Although I have been training well, my food intake is really letting me down.  Nutrition is what its all about and I know I have to clean up my act if I’m going to get the results I want.

I have managed to get up to date with my pre-season tasks.  Found that some new excuses were forming, stupid ones where I think I can get away with eating bad because I have lost so much weight. It’s like I think “I can get away with it!” But I know I’ve been caught out by this attitude before and I am not going to allow it to happen again.  The other problem I have noticed is that I tend to eat badly on the days when I am at home. The cupboard is there and although there is not much bad stuff in there, its more of an overeating issue than an eating crap issue.  For some reason I tend to ignore my meal plans on these days, that’s if I even have a meal plan.  Have not been doing them for a while!  So time to get organised and start planning again.

Sorry this post is a bit of a ramble today.  Just need to get it out there!


Zuzka is back!

Towards the end of last year I discovered Bodyrock.tv a home workout website led by the amazing Zuzana Light.  I was gob-smacked by her strength and incredibly fit body – this chick rocks!!  I have no idea what chance I have of getting a body like that but she is definitely someone that inspires me.  Not only does she have abs to die for but a lovely personality as well.  She explains everything to her viewers and is extremely encouraging to everyone.  Just before Christmas, Zuzana and her husband Freddy broke up and he has since moved on with the Bodyrock.tv website with his brother Sean and some new hosts.  I have continued to follow them despite Zuzana’s absence and although the workouts are still great, it really isn’t the same without Zuzka.  Zuzka IS Bodyrock and always will be in my opinion!

But Zuzka is back!  I read with excitement on Facebook this morning that Zuzka had released her first ZWOD (Zuzka’s Workout Of the DAY) on YouTube.  I was so excited for her to be making this comeback after the breakup.  She herself admitted that she had gained some weight and lost some fitness over the past 2 months and she seemed to genuinely struggle during this workout.  And for the first time ever I was actually able to keep up with her during the workout when I tried it today!  It was killer but so good!  Zuzana really is amazing…she is a  beautiful soul, an amazing athlete and a massive inspiration to me – I am thrilled to see her back doing what she does best!


Afraid of the unknown…

I did my stress ECG test yesterday. The results were great…my heart is functioning normally and I am also quite fit according to the results.  But there is a part of me that feels I have failed this test in some way.
You see, the stress test involves walking/running on a treadmill at increasing inclines until you can go no further.  You can stop when you have had enough.  Well my problem is that I think I stopped too soon. I know I could have pushed myself further but I didn’t. And its been playing on my mind ever since. 
You see, I didn’t go into this thing with a game plan (why would I?) so I hadn’t considered what I would do at this moment. Don’t get me wrong, it was hard work but I know I gave up too soon and this was proven by my max HR for the test of only 168.  I’ve pushed myself further than that before!!
I think the real reason I am kicking myself over this is that I had the opportunity to really see how far I could go under supervised conditions and I blew it.  Now I still don’t know just what my real limits are and that is something that has always worried me because I know I hold back sometimes when I’m training. I hold myself back from pushing myself further and going into unknown territory.  If nothing else its a lesson learnt and I really do have to start finding the confidence to push myself into the unknown.

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That special something…

I feel like I just have to take a few moments to write about my run this morning.  I decided to do a run with a few hills instead of my Bridge to 10K training.  It was a gorgeous morning and finally warm enough that I could wear just a t-shirt and tights.  My run was going along as expected, I usually struggle a bit up the hill on the Alpine Way but I made it to the top without having to stop.  And then it was time to come back down.  I was at the 6k mark when I just had this euphoric feeling wash over me.  I found myself running faster than I usually do and I just felt like I never wanted to stop.  It also helped that the song I was listening to was quite fast-paced and if I hadn’t needed to turn around and go home I think I might have kicked on for another few km’s.  I did go on for a bit further because I was enjoying the feeling so much that I just had to keep going for a bit longer.  But then reality came crashing in to remind me that I had to get home and get ready for work.  Never mind, I ran an extra kilometre that I had not planned to and I felt great.  Gotta love endorphins!!  

I am really starting to understand why runners run.  There really is something special about it – it’s not just something physical, it’s mental and (dare I say it) spiritual as well.  All I know is that I am so happy that I discovered running – it’s not for everyone but for me it has become a very important part of my life and I am always looking forward to the next run.


Where is summer???…but it’s great for running!

I woke up this morning feeling keen to run again.  I decided as I was getting dressed that I would start the Bridge to 10K program that I have installed as an app on my phone.  I thought it might make things more interesting if I had a program to follow and a goal to work towards.

It was quite chilly this morning so I donned my thermal compression tights and long sleeve running top, an outfit I used to wear in winter.  What is going on?  It’s January and I’m dressing like it’s August!  But I can’t complain because it makes for brilliant running weather.  On of my greatest concerns coming in to summer was that I would find running too hot but so far this has not been a problem.  In fact, it feels like summer hasn’t even started here.  But that’s life in the mountains!!

I ended up running almost 8km this morning (there was a bit of walking in there too!) but it felt great to push myself just that little bit harder and further.  Sometimes I find it hard to believe that I run – a year ago I wouldn’t even have considered it! 

I started running after reading Mish’s Crunchtime book and realising what an effective exercise it was.  So I thought I would give it a go.  I could barely run for 1 minute but I kept trying – walk a few minutes, run 1 minute, walk a few minutes, run 1 minute.  You get the idea!  Then I discovered the Couch to 5K program and downloaded an app onto my phone.  It was great because a little voice would come through my earphones telling me when to walk and run.  It meant I didn’t have to keep checking my watch every 5 seconds while I was gasping for breath!  It took me a bit longer than 9 weeks to get through the program but I got there and I have been regularly running 5km ever since.  So if you’ve never run before and you would like to give it a go then give the Couch to 5k program a try. 

Ease into 5K App for iPhone

Ease into 5K Android App


Getting into the groove again…

Another nice run this morning.  It was a bit cool though and very windy – I didn’t take my jacket off the whole time.  The wind slowed be down a bit at times but it was great to be out there in the fresh air. 

The strangest thing about my run today was that there were people around (I usually see no-one).  Turns out there is a rescue search going on – 3 people are missing so the SES, fire brigade and police were all up getting ready for today’s search.  I hope these people are okay because it was cold and wet yesterday and now with this icy wind they will be frozen to the bone!!  At least the sun is out so that should make the search easier.  I sure do hope they find them alive and well.

Now that I am back into my training, I think it’s high time that I start focussing on my eating.  This is what really lets me down at times.  I have a tendency to graze alot during the day, especially when I am at home, and I just don’t realise how many calories I have consumed.  Then there is my habit of eating my son’s leftovers and then there’s also the binging.  I don’t know what comes over me at these times but they only last for about 5 minutes and I will shove all sorts of things in my gob and consume them without even really realising I’ve done it.  I mean I do know I’m doing it but there is also something quite subconcious about it – it’s as though it takes a while for my brain to register what is going on.  I have no idea why I do this – it doesn’t happen often but it disturbs me that it does all the same.  Sometimes I think there is this part of me that just wants to rebel against all this strict healthy eating – I think it’s the “inner teenager” that Mish has talked about in her mindset lessons.  The other thing that I do with these episodes is that I eat the food so quickly that I don’t even have a chance to enjoy it!  It’s like if I eat it quickly enough I can pretend I haven’t done it!  These are all issues I need to address.  Maybe I just need to allow myself the odd treat each week and sit down and really enjoy it!  Make it a part of my meal plan and enjoy it without guilt!  And perhaps if I can stay more focussed on the goal – perhaps visually with a vision board or something like that – the desire to break out like this will be reduced!

Well it was good to get that off my chest!  I think the first step in overcoming a problem is owning and admitting to it.  Putting it out there might just help me get back on track!

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Feeling like me again!

It was a beautiful morning today! I happily got out of bed at 5.15am and was out the door and on the road at 5.30.  There really is something magical about this time of the day…the silence, the stillness, the crispness in the air.  I just love it…and I love it even more because this is MY time.  I am completely alone with no demands and I can do whatever I want.  And this morning I wanted to run!
I decided that 5km would be achievable and I was happy to walk if I needed a rest.  But once those legs got moving I found myself back in that captivating rhythm and before I knew it 4km had flown by.  I slowed down to a walk a couple of times in the last km but I was really happy with my time.  I definitely noticed that my fitness level had dropped since the last time I ran. My pulse ran a little higher than usual and my legs were a bit tired towards the end but it was great to get through it with no chest pains.
I have been confident this whole time that there is nothing wrong with my heart so today’s run boosted my confidence even further.  Even so, I will wait until I’ve had my tests before pushing myself any further.  I am just so happy to be back to doing what I love and back to feeling like me again!


Kick my butt please!

I really have not started this New Year very well when it comes to exercise.  There’s been alot going on and several late nights and I know I need the sleep but I can’t help being pissed off at myself for not getting up in the mornings to walk.  Part of this is because I am extremely unenthused about walking – it just doesn’t cut it for me!  There’s no adrenalin high and definitely not enough calorie burn!  But enough is enough – it’s time to take action and JFDI!!

Now I know I’m on doctor’s orders to not overdo the exercise until I have had the tests done on my ticker.  But I think I know my body better than anyone and I am honestly feeling great.  The only thing I am in need of is a good endorphin hit.  So I am going to get up tomorrow morning and I AM GOING TO RUN!!!!  I’ll take it easy – just a cruisy 5km – and if anything doesn’t feel right then I will slow back down to a walk.  I just have to do this – I have become an endorphin junkie over the past 8 months and if I don’t get my fix soon I am going to be impossible to live with.  My doctor doesn’t need to know I’m running and neither does my husband and at 5.30 in the morning who the hell is going to know what I’m up to anyway!

So now it’s out there!  I am committing to it so now I have to do it and I will report back tomorrow to let you know how it goes!


My transformation so far…

It all started in April last year, when I had two pairs of jeans split between the legs and the button pop on another pair of pants!  I felt terrible – what had happened to me?  I had hardly lost any weight after the birth of my gorgeous boy, in fact I was starting to gain weight again!

I bought a copy of Michelle Bridges Crunchtime and started reading.  I decided to at least follow her exercise plan and start eating better.  Then I discovered her 12 Week Body Transformation online and luckily for me Round 2 of 2011 was soon going to be starting.  I signed up straight away!

I lost about 3kg before the round started and then another 9kg during that first round.  It was great!  Mish gave you everything you needed for success – meals plans, shopping lists, exercise plans, mindset lessons and to top it off a great community of people to interact with on the forums.  It was the best $200 I had ever spent in my life.

My second round (Round 3, 2011) was not as successful weight-loss wise but my fitness increased dramatically and I started achieving things that I had never thought possible before – like running 10km or doing push-ups on my toes!  I also got more involved in the world of tweeting that round and I now have an awesome “twitter family” that have been a great source of support and friendship!  At the end of Round 3 I had lost almost 16kg from when I had first started out.  I had lost the weight of my 2 1/2 year old son!!



And now I find myself eagerly awaiting the start of Round 1, 2012.  I still have some more weight to lose, some more goals to achieve but I will happily admit that I am now really comfortable in my own skin.  I am happy with where I am at but I still want the challenge of achieving more!  Now that I have come this far, I know I can keep going and achieve those goals. 

The biggest goal for this round will be to finally achieve a healthy BMI, something that has eluded me for most of my adult life!  This morning I weighed in at 68.4kg and for a short-arse like me, a healthy BMI of 25 is a weight of about 62kg.  So that’s only just over 6kg away!  Very exciting!!!

Unfortunately at the moment my progress has been slowed by some health issues.  I had an incident a couple of weeks ago where I had some tightening in my chest whilst doing interval sprints on the treadmill.  I felt a bit queasy afterwards and just knew I had to go to the doctors because it was a feeling I had never had before.  They have already done some tests which have come back perfect but I have a Stress ECG booked for Jan 18 and until then the doctor has ordered me to take it easy.  So I’m walking and doing a bit of yoga but I really miss my running!!!  So bring on Jan 18 – I’m sure the results will be great and I can start striving to reach those goals once again!