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Afraid of the unknown…

on January 19, 2012

I did my stress ECG test yesterday. The results were great…my heart is functioning normally and I am also quite fit according to the results.  But there is a part of me that feels I have failed this test in some way.
You see, the stress test involves walking/running on a treadmill at increasing inclines until you can go no further.  You can stop when you have had enough.  Well my problem is that I think I stopped too soon. I know I could have pushed myself further but I didn’t. And its been playing on my mind ever since. 
You see, I didn’t go into this thing with a game plan (why would I?) so I hadn’t considered what I would do at this moment. Don’t get me wrong, it was hard work but I know I gave up too soon and this was proven by my max HR for the test of only 168.  I’ve pushed myself further than that before!!
I think the real reason I am kicking myself over this is that I had the opportunity to really see how far I could go under supervised conditions and I blew it.  Now I still don’t know just what my real limits are and that is something that has always worried me because I know I hold back sometimes when I’m training. I hold myself back from pushing myself further and going into unknown territory.  If nothing else its a lesson learnt and I really do have to start finding the confidence to push myself into the unknown.

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One response to “Afraid of the unknown…

  1. Perhaps you could look on it as…. that you now know AT LEAST what you can do…. at a minimum!

    Deb

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