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Snowangel's 12WBT Journey and Beyond

Getting into the groove again…

Another nice run this morning.  It was a bit cool though and very windy – I didn’t take my jacket off the whole time.  The wind slowed be down a bit at times but it was great to be out there in the fresh air. 

The strangest thing about my run today was that there were people around (I usually see no-one).  Turns out there is a rescue search going on – 3 people are missing so the SES, fire brigade and police were all up getting ready for today’s search.  I hope these people are okay because it was cold and wet yesterday and now with this icy wind they will be frozen to the bone!!  At least the sun is out so that should make the search easier.  I sure do hope they find them alive and well.

Now that I am back into my training, I think it’s high time that I start focussing on my eating.  This is what really lets me down at times.  I have a tendency to graze alot during the day, especially when I am at home, and I just don’t realise how many calories I have consumed.  Then there is my habit of eating my son’s leftovers and then there’s also the binging.  I don’t know what comes over me at these times but they only last for about 5 minutes and I will shove all sorts of things in my gob and consume them without even really realising I’ve done it.  I mean I do know I’m doing it but there is also something quite subconcious about it – it’s as though it takes a while for my brain to register what is going on.  I have no idea why I do this – it doesn’t happen often but it disturbs me that it does all the same.  Sometimes I think there is this part of me that just wants to rebel against all this strict healthy eating – I think it’s the “inner teenager” that Mish has talked about in her mindset lessons.  The other thing that I do with these episodes is that I eat the food so quickly that I don’t even have a chance to enjoy it!  It’s like if I eat it quickly enough I can pretend I haven’t done it!  These are all issues I need to address.  Maybe I just need to allow myself the odd treat each week and sit down and really enjoy it!  Make it a part of my meal plan and enjoy it without guilt!  And perhaps if I can stay more focussed on the goal – perhaps visually with a vision board or something like that – the desire to break out like this will be reduced!

Well it was good to get that off my chest!  I think the first step in overcoming a problem is owning and admitting to it.  Putting it out there might just help me get back on track!

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Feeling like me again!

It was a beautiful morning today! I happily got out of bed at 5.15am and was out the door and on the road at 5.30.  There really is something magical about this time of the day…the silence, the stillness, the crispness in the air.  I just love it…and I love it even more because this is MY time.  I am completely alone with no demands and I can do whatever I want.  And this morning I wanted to run!
I decided that 5km would be achievable and I was happy to walk if I needed a rest.  But once those legs got moving I found myself back in that captivating rhythm and before I knew it 4km had flown by.  I slowed down to a walk a couple of times in the last km but I was really happy with my time.  I definitely noticed that my fitness level had dropped since the last time I ran. My pulse ran a little higher than usual and my legs were a bit tired towards the end but it was great to get through it with no chest pains.
I have been confident this whole time that there is nothing wrong with my heart so today’s run boosted my confidence even further.  Even so, I will wait until I’ve had my tests before pushing myself any further.  I am just so happy to be back to doing what I love and back to feeling like me again!


Kick my butt please!

I really have not started this New Year very well when it comes to exercise.  There’s been alot going on and several late nights and I know I need the sleep but I can’t help being pissed off at myself for not getting up in the mornings to walk.  Part of this is because I am extremely unenthused about walking – it just doesn’t cut it for me!  There’s no adrenalin high and definitely not enough calorie burn!  But enough is enough – it’s time to take action and JFDI!!

Now I know I’m on doctor’s orders to not overdo the exercise until I have had the tests done on my ticker.  But I think I know my body better than anyone and I am honestly feeling great.  The only thing I am in need of is a good endorphin hit.  So I am going to get up tomorrow morning and I AM GOING TO RUN!!!!  I’ll take it easy – just a cruisy 5km – and if anything doesn’t feel right then I will slow back down to a walk.  I just have to do this – I have become an endorphin junkie over the past 8 months and if I don’t get my fix soon I am going to be impossible to live with.  My doctor doesn’t need to know I’m running and neither does my husband and at 5.30 in the morning who the hell is going to know what I’m up to anyway!

So now it’s out there!  I am committing to it so now I have to do it and I will report back tomorrow to let you know how it goes!


My transformation so far…

It all started in April last year, when I had two pairs of jeans split between the legs and the button pop on another pair of pants!  I felt terrible – what had happened to me?  I had hardly lost any weight after the birth of my gorgeous boy, in fact I was starting to gain weight again!

I bought a copy of Michelle Bridges Crunchtime and started reading.  I decided to at least follow her exercise plan and start eating better.  Then I discovered her 12 Week Body Transformation online and luckily for me Round 2 of 2011 was soon going to be starting.  I signed up straight away!

I lost about 3kg before the round started and then another 9kg during that first round.  It was great!  Mish gave you everything you needed for success – meals plans, shopping lists, exercise plans, mindset lessons and to top it off a great community of people to interact with on the forums.  It was the best $200 I had ever spent in my life.

My second round (Round 3, 2011) was not as successful weight-loss wise but my fitness increased dramatically and I started achieving things that I had never thought possible before – like running 10km or doing push-ups on my toes!  I also got more involved in the world of tweeting that round and I now have an awesome “twitter family” that have been a great source of support and friendship!  At the end of Round 3 I had lost almost 16kg from when I had first started out.  I had lost the weight of my 2 1/2 year old son!!



And now I find myself eagerly awaiting the start of Round 1, 2012.  I still have some more weight to lose, some more goals to achieve but I will happily admit that I am now really comfortable in my own skin.  I am happy with where I am at but I still want the challenge of achieving more!  Now that I have come this far, I know I can keep going and achieve those goals. 

The biggest goal for this round will be to finally achieve a healthy BMI, something that has eluded me for most of my adult life!  This morning I weighed in at 68.4kg and for a short-arse like me, a healthy BMI of 25 is a weight of about 62kg.  So that’s only just over 6kg away!  Very exciting!!!

Unfortunately at the moment my progress has been slowed by some health issues.  I had an incident a couple of weeks ago where I had some tightening in my chest whilst doing interval sprints on the treadmill.  I felt a bit queasy afterwards and just knew I had to go to the doctors because it was a feeling I had never had before.  They have already done some tests which have come back perfect but I have a Stress ECG booked for Jan 18 and until then the doctor has ordered me to take it easy.  So I’m walking and doing a bit of yoga but I really miss my running!!!  So bring on Jan 18 – I’m sure the results will be great and I can start striving to reach those goals once again!


New Year, new blog!

So this is my first blog. I’m a bit nervous about getting it started but I just want a place to record my journey, record my thoughts and express my opinions about anything and everything.

The main focus will of course be my journey with 12WBT, Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. This amazing online program has truly changed my life. Not only have I lost weight and increased my fitness levels but I have also gained confidence, become more assertive and am now enjoying life like never before.

I have already done two rounds of this great program and am signed up for a third which kicks off really soon. I have another 5-10kg to lose and I want to continue increasing my fitness and seeing just how far I can push my body. It’s really exciting to be always pushing to that next level.

I’ve been thinking about some specific goals for this year. So here are a few to get me started…

* lose 5-10kg so that I achieve a healthy BMI
* run 5km in 30 minutes
* increase my running distance so that I regularly run 8-10k
* participate in a 10k fun run
* learn to ride a road bike and start making cycling a part of my training

I’m sure there will be more.  I have to admit that I haven’t put alot of thought into it yet.  I really need to sit down and write it all out on paper to make it real.

It’s a bit the same with the post.  I really haven’t thought about what I want to write for this first post.  I guess it’s just a bit of an introduction, a “hello world!” and I will fill in all the blanks later as I go along.

So for now, let’s just get it out there! 

And Happy New Year!!!